I’m pregnant. I took a test a few days too early, and was surprised to see a very faint line. I have taken a lot of tests, mine aren’t positive. Now I don't think I need to say this, but have mercy, those test are vague in a moment where lack of clarity is very unhelpful. A friend told me to get the digital test and I didn't listen to her, which inevitably lead to my googling through tears what a positive faint line would look like. Cruel. So cruel. These positive tests, these doesn’t happen to us, we don’t get pregnant. But there it was. I came into the living room and told Trever who had no idea I would be testing that early. I won't attempt to explain the moment, words would invariably fail.
We're twelve weeks along and due July 10th.
Nothing I can say would ever give any real exposure to state of my soul today. This tiny life is a grace beyond what I can even grasp.